FAM'09;19th November 2009 Hilton

It should have been a wonderful night, but it was one of the night when I have my full blown headache. And this time it came with the pukish sensation what the heck seriously. I guess it was because of the serious overdose of hairspray, which smelt disgusting bitter and gross, plus the lack of water and I don't know what. I kind of like my eye make up although I could not rub my eyes or see properly (GOODNESS A NIGHT WITHOUT SPECS) and speaking of these, throughout the night I couldn't see, eat, lean back, put my legs on the hair, and I couldn't even take photos properly without pausing the other person to wait for my pukish feeling to subside. HOW ANNOYING IS THAT.

So in the end I don't even remember what I ate, besides the soup. And i think that's all I ate. the soup and ALOT of tea.

and the only 2 funny things that happened:

#1
jaslyn: (takes up my tea cup, but realised that there's no tea in the teapot so put my cup back down again)
wanting: (STARES) um jaslyn... (points to cup)

(the cup was sitting in my little plate of soy sauce)

#2
(2 pieces of cracker flew up into air, one landed on my plate and the other bside)
jaslyn: ..oops! was that me!

haha funny how both involves jaslyn. The usually composed person. Eh off to upload photos FOR SAM.

Graduation today(:

Hoho! Am finally back to this place, have been really really lazy recently although many things have happened=/

Anyway, this week was pretty bad, the agony of paper checking): the routine was something like: mutter "damnit!" the moment I wake up, roll out of my brother's bed, which I am sleeping on recently, do everything and stumble onto the buses and sleep. reach school and start to panic. Start hyperventilating after morning assembly. Feel like puking when the teachers come in and stay that way until I receive my paper then feel miserable for the rest of the day.

SIGH.

anyway, it's over, so yay(:
AND, I think it's really time for me to upload my photos=/ I have too many of them in berry hmm haha. Like the oldest photos were from teachers' day x)

Blah my foot's starting to hurt again. Took like almost an hour to walk a km-slowww
 

You know, I hate how I am so sensitive and am always so afraid of offending the people around me. So afraid, that I will always worry, looking for signs in their expression, they way they speak. And because of this my emotions are always on a rollercoaster ride. it's really really unpleasant but there's nothing I can do. And it really doesnt help that I always seem to upset someone. Even if it's just in my opinion but wth the feeling is really bad. 
 And somehow I think this is a post-primary school trauma, which also explains why I have never liked that place, which also explains why I didn't go back today, although it may be my last ever chance unless I send my brother to school some day or something who knows.

Anyway, a few memorable things from the past weeks

1. Barefoot soccer. Whee that was really fun although it was kind of freaky because the field was so slippery but it was really fun to run in the water, although it's dirty and probably infested with... what worms was it..? Haha. And my foot eye coordination is really like negative. I can either look ahead and run or look down and kick. So looking ahead and kicking at the same time is impossible.
sheesh. Oh and there was the gigantic snail that I almost stepped on=/

2. Coming home early practically everyday and sleeping like a pig. Then waking up looking like a monster and remaining relatively semi conscious until I take my bath. It's a bad routine.

3. Watching Sam and Charlene learn the mirotic dance. HA HA HA.

4. Bingo and Amanda's plants Version 3. HAHA. It was really funny. Stalker. HAHA.

and omggg ms kum's baby is sooooooo cute!!! I heard his heartbeat!! OMG:D

It really sucks when you realise that everyone around you are there but none is there for you. And it also sucks that all that comes out are just empty words. No one cares a damn you realise?